It's deflating. This profession is such a punching bag, mostly from the right. But I've heard parents of all persuasions that think they can do the job better. Worse yet, I get paid squat for the work I do and the benefits have gotten progressively worse over the five years I've been doing this. I get a lot of appreciation and love every year from my students and their parents, that helps, but it doesn't help my own family. It doesn't pay the bills. And I keep hearing how we're doing a crappy job while more and more is piled on our plate. While parents do less and less to support our efforts. While the government works to make our job harder. And now this doofus is in charge. I hate hearing about charter schools and the BS they pass off as success. My classroom takes any and all, not hand selects kids that will make them look good. I'm tired of seeing black and brown children forgotten, ignored, and deliberately shunted away from the one thing that could change their lives all so that some well off white person doesn't have their kid's school scuttled with diversity. Or, god help us, their money might get dispersed a little bit to help some children. I watch kids in homogenuous countries with different rules about special education getting propped up as "better" than American kids. Even while our kids do more at younger ages than ever before. And continue to lead the world in innovation, creativity, and so many other things. I'm tired of a test being used to determine if a 9 year old should get to advance with his/her class. I'm tired of schools being punished financially because, on one day, their students weren't up to standard. I could go on, but I'm deflated. I'll always work hard for the 30ish kids in my charge for a year, but it gets harder and harder not to look elsewhere. You know, a job where I could take a sick day when I'm sick without adding 4 hours of work to my plate. A job where I'm paid a livable wage. A job where my benefits and perks aren't constantly being rolled back. But I am fighting back, Jeff Flake (my state senator now, here in the pit that is Arizona. Or as I call it "Arid Mississippi") has heard from me numerous times. I plan to do more as I learn more about this place, but it's hard to generate a lot of enthusiasm to fight when the hill seems so steep. Maybe DeVos will get some people on our side again. I mean, I'd love to make every American try for a week what I do. I imagine teacher salaries would triple by the end of it once people realize what it entails. Now I'm rambling....